Over In The Brain Section

Three weeks feels more like three years. Two months feels like two centuries. Living is forever, joy comes and goes, and heartbreak never ending cycle. This quadrant is over loaded the red lights are flashing and in anytime total system failure. The difficulty is at level 30 but stuck at 15. Looking around you as the things pass by it just keeps going and going and going. As you just stand there wondering "DUDE WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON". Do not have time to soak it all in, plans for the present, plans for the future. Looking back and wondering that's where your soul is left in the past. Digging through all of the dimensions is an impossible task, so your to construct a new one. Working your way back up to 100% understand your true meaning, but knowing your shadow is a stranger.


Nothing out of something is always something.
RAMBLE RAMBLE THIS THIS RAMBLE RAMBLE THAT THAT.

they call me mr. president.

living history...... a dream that has been made to reality.
HOPE & PROUD to be an American again.

unite

Today, MLK jr had a dream. Tomorrow that dream will become a reality. Wonder what he would be thinking? That is the million and 5 dollar question. I'm just glad to be alive to witness this event.

"proof that it's possible to live"

Don't worry I found something else to keep that fire going, just know the part that was buring for you is now blown out. I'm not telling a lie to myself or others, OMG totally 100 PERCENT telling the truth. It was fun, so many fun memories, conversations, feelings etc. It was heart breaking cause I knew deep down that ............ yeah the crash. It also reminded me of something that happen before and instead of having it go on like last time; this time Im going to take care of myself. What's done is done and was already 75% over it so only have 25 to go. Not to bad I have plenty of things and I guess you were only meant to me as a friend OR nothing at all time will tell on that one. This is the only thing I like about myself I wont DWELL on it. So after this it will be COMEPLETELY DONE everything, my mind,heart,body, and soul are FREE to live ,just as they always were, but this time with a little more room to breathe.


thank you so very much.

"dont worry you'll be alright"

Every FIRST day of classes at tulane FEELS like the first day of elementary school. I HAVE NO CLOSE FRIENDS HERE AND EVERYONE IS PRETTY MUCH NOT MY STYLE. Although exeptional FEW I do get along with which I like to call my "school friends". RAMBLING........ ANYWAYS after not going for the fall semester enjoying my time off working for a festival, focusing on my mom, helping fearless record with promoting shows WHICH WERE FEW LETS FACE IT NO ONE AMAZING TOURS HERE, and helping out from legends to nancy as their merch person and at time manange them <33333333. I really did want to come back to school cause I rather HURRY up and finish my last semesters (spring summer and finally fall). BUT back to my main point I hate first days. I HATE YOU FIRST DAYS OF SCHOOL. Maybe not the content like school shit, just people, seeing you would click with and don't. ITS TOUGH, but it doesnt only apply to school I guess. hopefully this first week goes by fast which today went by fast so GOOD yay. this weekend going to be so busy getting ready for From legends to nancy's headline show. I WILL CRY THIS TIME, cause there such young boys and look at them big accomplishments. Also on my mind is whether or not to work Jazz Fest, to kind of get me ready for Essence Fest in July because IM DEF working that. Conflict with jazz fest is Erykuh Badu not really haha she was ALRIGHT at voodoo backstage. BUT I REALLY WANT TO SEE the fest. I REALLY want to see Aretha Franklin/Dave Matthew DUDE EARTH WIND AND FIRE!!!!!!!!!!. Im so excited for them. So we'll see its a couple of months away for me to decided most likely just going to attend.

Last week was bad and this one looks and feels so much better. Hopefully cross fingers. I want CRAWFISH! but right now going to my monday night class.

oh doctor, doctor...

You go to school to learn how to better someone, to save their lives. BUT WHEN do you lose your moral value. Its when you start believing your a "god". Your just sick and twisted by that point. How can something that's suppose to be simple ALMOST end up in taking someones life. That life so happen to be my MOTHERS. The worst part is that you didn't have the audacity to even tell her you the TOTALLY FUCKED UP and hit an important vein and almost left her there bleeding to death. HOW CAN SOMEONE DO THAT! YOUR SUPPOSE TO GIVE HER BACK HER ARM NOT KILL HER NOT MAKE IT A MILLION TIMES WORSE. YOU WERE GOING TO TAKE AWAY THE ONE PERSON THAT I NEVER WANT TO LEAVE ME. You sat there and told my mom, dad, and me that everything was going to be okay and she was going to recover. YOU SAT THERE AND LIED TO US. I'm just glad you didn't sit there and tell her that YOU KILLED HER. Because then well... THINGS would have just happen. SERIOUSLY how can you just sit there and not say anything because you don't want people to know you fucked up YOU DOCTOR DID FUCK UP. You just better be thankful My family still has her, but we also still have suffering; so we thank you for that too. As angry as I am and always will be, hopefully one day when something happens to you and your life is in danger, there is a better doctor to treat you than you treated my mother. The you will know that NO ONE can be a CRUEL LYING BITCH like you.

flip it and reverse it.

Take that same question you posted that was directed toward us, and flip it and ask it for yourself. Then think about it.. keep thinking.. and keep going until you finally realized that we are not the ones to blame or maybe blame isn't the right word, but a fact is that we work around everyone and we cannot help that plans fall on bad days, but those bad days fall often. Personally I'm tired of playing a ring leader, but then again with some people I don't have to be, we all come together naturally not forcefully. Like the song says "Maybe I'm Just Tired", because its always the same mess.

09

happy 2009, the year of getting life together and OH MY LORD growing up, literally.
- college graduation.
- saving money to move out.
- finding a job.
- turning 21.
- getting my hair longer (okay maybe that doesn't fit into this category :| )

the BIG things that you know has to come but you really don't wait it too.
It's almost that time. *cross fingers* everything turns our AMAZING but I will settle for an alright. ANOTHER REVELATION Don't you hate when you realized who you thought you wanted, wasn't the person that really had your heart beating faster than it should. Yeah, totally kick myself in the ass every time because it could have been, but as for now were just not. Just a level below. Its stupid pretty. I'll settle for what I have right now. I'll figure this out later. right now priority number .5 is school other than my other .5 family&friends which both equal my number one priority HAHAHA IM SO SMART!