Waiting Scene

Tomorrow once again I will be walking a scent of death & life. A place where it begins and ends. Hopefully the saying "third times a charm" has some truth in it. The only time I can admit being scared is being in a waiting room or roaming through the halls and seeing inside and the outside. You see so many thing suffering or joy. Why is life ONE OR THE OTHER? Why not one or the other or the other OR the other?

Mommy, this time they will get it right. Hopefully this time we'll get you back to something normal.


To make matters worse we just got a call from my father saying he might have broken his ankle and if their is any truth to that then basically we are screwed. This means more responsibility would have to be placed upon me being the house provider of three other people and a dog. A challenge that I have no problem taking one, its time to give back, because they have done so much for me SO MUCH. I thank GOD for choosing them to be my parents because it COULD BE so much worse.

I don't care about ANYTHING ELSE going on. All my focus is on the positive things and recovery. Which is funny cause RECOVERY is something I've been doing for 3 years and comes natural. So as for now my future there are going to be bumps, but hopefully in the gaps it will be smooth.