CUT IT OUT.

I want to like something that cannot be liked.
I want to feel something that cannot be felt.
I want to see something that cannot be seen.
I want to love something that cannot be loved.
I want to learn what cannot be taught.
I want to have everything in grasp even if it cannot be held..


I want to be simple, but I'm mentally complicated.
I want to express my emotions, but I'm to good at hiding them.
I want to stop crying, but there is so many tears to still be shed.
I want to stop feeling alone, when I'm REALLY NOT alone.
I want to stop feeling sorry for myself, when there is nothing to be sorry about.
I want to know the future, and completely forget about the past.
I want to LIVE in the present, but i can't handle it.
I want to live my life, but I'm tied down by the "american traditions".
I want to feel more, instead of always feeling less.

If this breakdown could...
If this song could...
If this lyric could...
If this guitar solo could...
If this lightening could...
If this rain could...
If this thunder could...
If this sigh could...
If this slow rocking could...
If this movement could...
If this beat could...

SSSSSSSSSPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKK


Something has gotten me unnerved and not feeling LIKE me. I have no sense in thought today. I felt like I was floating. I cannot even being to think.. maybe that its way to much thinking time, BUT that's always it. IM BORED with thoughts; its the same shit different days or different shit same day.

THIS THAT THESE AND THOSE MY WHO WHAT WHEN WHY AND HOW BECAUSE IT WAS WASNT DID DIDNT WONT DONT COULDNT HAVE BEEN SHOULD HAVE DONE WHAT THE FUCK........