Was so alive, but now so lost

Every day is a step closer to that one day. Just can't help to think that it just started 16 years ago. 16 years of learning, adapting, and just having the same routine. You also find yourself wondering, what if all this is worth it. Will I get the job based on my desire to put my all into it, or because they take a look a piece of paper that shows how you progressed and digress. Those grades, those numbers, or really nothing on that paper TRULY explains what knowledge that person has in that field. College is just a higher education in a specific field, some people that didn't go still have the best education that doesn't have a $50,000 bill to it. Life teaches you way more than a professor, TA, or an adviser would ever.

You just realize that, its nice to have gotten taught these other things, but in reality its up to the person soaking it all in to put it to good use. It doesn't matter what letter grade you get, a job doesnt grade you by letters, it grades you by the hard work you put in and always doing a good job.


Some say its the 4 years of getting you prepared for the real world, really its just four more years of busting your ass, trying not to let yourself down, not trying to let your parents down, stressing out, growing up, finding yourself, and just really delaying the inevitable................. that day is coming up soon. With each passing day the crisis in the world really makes you wonder was it a wise decision because it COULD get better then it would be all worth it or it could all get worse and everything you worked for in that time was for nothing. You could have been out doing something for yourself.


You just got to keep it positive, but that's so very hard to do with the different variables surrounding us. Plus life is never that easy, but it looks just so easy for some other people. CROSSING FINGERS and HOPING that something always has a happy ending in the non fantasy world.