the waters getting higher

you don't have to ask someone to make you happy, people makes themselves happy. you just have to be there for people when they need you. you don't have to ask for something, normally people just do it out of their own heart.

One thing to say I am feeling a little better. Maybe from all the tears that have fallen, maybe because I had a 20 minutes freedom, maybe I have people that are TRULY concern about me. I never ask for help or talk to people about my problems because I feel like a burden to them, like I don't want to cut into their life. I know that everyone has something going on so I just deal with everything myself, which I've learned it not a good idea. I'm like this because in the past when I asked someone for help all I would get is "OH I'M SORRY" or "I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU".
What is that suppose to do? Honestly? It makes me feel like a burden, its the truth.

I know it doesn't bother me when someone that I know needs me. I want them to be happy and have peace with themselves and life. From what I do to help someone thats what I get back for being a good person and a good friend. You get what you receive, well most of the time. Even if people haven't shown you anything you as a person cannot turn your back on them. You just have to show them that in time of need your going to be their for them even if they aren't. You still make yourself a good person.


I've personally learned that in the past couple of years.
And I can't say it enough but thank you.

still much love to everyone though.

-sidenote-

I wish "winter" was here, I find it the most beautiful time of the year.
Is it because everything is lifeless? I don't know maybe its my comfort zone
plus my hair looks really good and I get to wear sweaters.


I am dreading the end of the month though
29th to be more exact.


life really is just + -